I have been thinking about attachment, illusion and diet. Now these may seem like strange bed fellows but are they? You often here the phrase bandied about 'all is illusion', its usually spouted out by people who know less about buddhist ethical process than an ant.

Now I have a a long term stuggle, all beit at a low level, with weight gain. I have tried many things and each time my own cravings and mentally justified greed of the 'go on just for today, a little 4000 calorie snack wont make a differance' has always won out. This week I have asked myself this fundamental question is my desire attachment as the experiance is definitely an illusory one, after all it does fade away to be replaced by more desire. In asking that question (this is before the weight watchers course has started) I have found thatI am able review my eating habits. I was going to say resist, but resist does not actually cover whats going on, its more of a sense of feeling whats true in me. Who knows the 4000 calorie snacks may win out, we shall see. But for now its nice to know that a different sense of self can cope with the illusory craving.

In all of this I have discovered that chocolate makes me depressed the day after consumption... now that is bad karma!

So I went to weight watchers... wow what an experiance! The first session was last night and the person sitting next to me had to get up and leave half way through as they were going to an offical dinner!

I have gone for the 'core diet plan' its just about what I eat anyway, its the snacks that get to me.. I can vacume up a packet of cookies in under five seconds. Ah well, sticks of celery here we come.